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My Drive

Updated: Aug 23, 2021

Drive , no I'm not talking about ๐Ÿ›ฃ๐Ÿš˜a car dive down a literal road. I'm talking about the force, ๐ŸŒ… within that burns brighter than the sun. โ˜€๏ธ

My drive use to be at the peak ๐Ÿ” like that of a mountain. I was so high on the scale that I could smile and have a good day even though I was just assaulted that morning. Now I do take into consideration that I was young ๐Ÿคธโ€โ™€๏ธ, and as a child ๐Ÿ‘ง๐Ÿฟ, it was easier to bounce back. Even in my teens and young adult life, ๐Ÿ‘ฉ๐Ÿฟ I was able to bounce back. I maintained this drive even into my 40's. It wasn't until my late 40's, when things started unraveling ๐Ÿ˜‘๐ŸŽฑ and found myself constantly behind the 8ball๐ŸŽฑ.

All my buried pain and trauma could no longer stay hidden and by this point that toxic waste ๐Ÿ›ข๐Ÿ›ขI had packed away, was leaking โ˜ขโ˜ฃ. Causing me to be truly ill ๐Ÿค•๐Ÿค’.

Once this happened my drive was leveled down to mere ashes. I was barely moving, living and doing anything. I was burned out ๐Ÿ•ฏthe candle was no longer standing tall with a bright flame.

I realized too, at this moment my enemies were rejoicing ๐Ÿ‘บ๐Ÿคฑ๐Ÿพ, the Devil and my Mom, ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿ•บ๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿ•บ๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿ•บ๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿ•บ๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿ•บ๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿฅ‚๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽˆ๐ŸŽˆ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿ•บ๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿพ

Yes they were dancing for they had finally achieved what they wanted me, knocked out flat, no longer fighting or happy.

The story doesn't end here of course, NO!! It really begins again. This will pick up later for discussion.

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